I woke up at around 4:25am on Saturday morning, just like we had planned. I was excited. Too excited to sleep properly. Throughout the night, the air conditioner was on high enough so I was slightly too cold and the sheets were sticky in a static-y kind of way.
I wasn't really prepared for a hike. I had told Micah that I wanted to go, but I didn't bring tennis shoes or hiking clothes. He didn't sound like he wanted to go on the phone.
But here we were, getting up really early to see the sunrise. Possibly with mountain lions or rattlesnakes. I'm not sure why I had come up with this idea.
I got up from bed and crept through Micah's parents' house to his room. He was already up. He lent me a shirt, shorts, and his sneakers which were about 2 sizes too big for me.
We packed up some water and my camera and then started driving towards downtown LA and Griffith Park.
It was dark and the roads were empty, save for a few cars driving beside us. I wanted to go see the sunrise at the Hollywood sign.
As we started driving through a hilly neighborhood, I started thinking of what was ahead of us: We would be stumbling around in the dark in a hiking spot that I wasn't familiar with in a hilly area where. My shoes were too big. What if I tripped on something? What if I stepped on a rattlesnake in the dark? Then, I started thinking of this news story of this couple who was killed in a fall while hiking on the Cold Springs trail in Santa Barbara.
I felt like I wanted to go home after all these thoughts popped into my head, but Micah kept driving relentlessly up the hill to the trailhead.
When we finally got to the top of the hill to the place where trailhead was, there were signs that informed us that the path was closed.
I felt relieved at first, but disappointed as we started driving back down the hill. The hike we had planned was foiled. Instead, we went to Griffith Observatory and hiked down from there. Micah led the way.
When we got there, it was cold and foggy. Nice conditions for hiking but not for the picture I had imagined. While we hiked, even if it was light enough and even if there was a clearly marked trail, I still felt scared. I think Micah felt it, so he tried to cheer me up by hiding in the bushes. It scared me more. We were still quite alone out there and I kept thinking of that Cold Springs couple.
But we hiked down to to the bottom safely and up to the top safely.
Even with all these worries in my head, it was still a fun time. I had been wanting to get some shots of the observatory and I got to take loads of pictures with a new lens I had just purchased. AND I got to spend some quality time with nature and my boyfriend.
This hike of ours happened some time ago - a few weeks before Micah went on his own adventure to medical school.
While I was scared and nervous to go on a hike, I don't think Micah has ever been nervous or worried about going to school in another country.
I think it is because he knows that anything can happen at any time. He sees every experience as an opportunity, and not a leap into a danger zone.
No experience ever turns out in the way you expect. You can forget your hiking clothes, trails get closed, and the sun rises too fast for a picture. It doesn't mean that a certain experience it isn't worth the time.
So now, whenever I have doubts about something I'm about to do, I want to think about Micah and be a little more fearless.